I can't. I just can't anymore. I don't know how to express myself. I want to cry, I want to cut, I want to just scream… but where will all that lead? I can't feel contempt with just poems, diary, stories, or spells. It just doesn't help. It's been a month and a half since I wrote in my diary. I just wrote 3 poems. It's been a month since I wrote a spell. A couple of days since I added anything to my story. It's felt like it's just not enough anymore, I feel like I'm at my limit here.
Today my mom and my sister asked me about college, my mom had told me that she wasn't going to remind me anymore yet she reminded me today. The idea of college brings up feelings I'd rather not experience. I'm jealous of the people who have left for college. Angry at myself for staying stuck. I just want to end it all…
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