Gay Family Values: Bully....Rated "R" For Realness

Gay Family Values: Bully....Rated "R" For Realness: Bullying has been a much talked about topic these days and as a person who was bullied to an extreme, I am very glad to see this come abo...

Fuck, I'm an asshole...

"It's a mind set brought on by poverty." Katy said. I hear her and I know I should understand. Just because I know I should understand doesn't mean I actually want to.

Thinking in the short-term and not focusing on the big picture, keep trucking and picking at the small rock not getting far. That's how I see it.

I'm pretty sure that I'm not being fair and it's probably because I don't understand.

That's how I feel when I listen to someone talk to me and try to help me. I don't know how to be nice to people or more like I don't want to be nice to people.

Summit

First off, I felt nervous as hell. I was shaking when I was eating the breakfast, a muffin and a piece of fruit. We were totally outcasts. The other GSA, they seemed like privileged kids.

The first "workshop" was the Cathedral City, La Quinta, Indio, and Coachella Valley High School GSA presidents talking about how to have a kick-ass GSA. I asked a question. Answered my question with a hypothesis, not an answer. I was honestly annoyed with La Quinta's GSA President, his voice was annoying.

After this we saw a great video, one of the best things at the Rainbow Youth Summit in my opinion.

The 2nd workshop I attended was better and actually seemed like a workshop. We learned about Safe Schools who I hope will train the teachers at Desert Mirage.

I'm not gonna explain everything else that went on but the one thing that I believe was missing was, team building. I did not get to know anyone new or talked to someone new for longer than 5 minutes. I felt like I was in a sea of strangers and was not comfortable without being around my GSA, Glow.

To top it off, the Anti-Prom is the night of The Hue. We asked to change the date but the girl in charge did not want to change the fucking date. For god's sake we have been planning The Hue for months and how long have You been planning this event? We have a locations and we have done this before. Have you?

After that I just felt like crying, we have been working so hard and for you to just not wanna change the date? Fuck this, I hope you fail and that The Hue gets more coverage and people than your prom. Just to add to my misery the guy I've been crushing on dances with the guy who I was the most annoyed with on this day.

Just my luck. I give up on relations and I hate boys right now. I just want to cry so badly, and cut.

Fluffs

Remember when everyone,
was all over Kony?
They didn't care about someone,
who was working for Sony.

Fluffy bunnies is who they are,
it's not gonna get them very far.

Fluffy bunnies made of dust,
Step on them they all com bust.
They all say it got to tough.
Couldn't handle it.
So now I call their bluff.

Activist?
Only if you persist.
Protester?
You have to be a big con-tester.

Fluff, don't pretend to care,
It's not something fair.
Not a trend
Like that hipster style you defend.

If you do care,
Stop looking at me with that glare.
It won't help you,
There's always something else to do.

So get the fuck up,
You're not stuck.
Be part of an actual change,
You won't seem deranged.

Lots of people protest
They fight for what they want.
It's not a big contest,
That means no award for you to flaunt.

"But I care," Bullshit.

When Foxconn employees protest and commit suicide because of the terrible conditions under which they work to make Apple products no one makes it into a big trending topic on twitter, yet when some guy kidnaps children to make his own army the whole world just goes apeshit. All because of Kony and they just won't shut the fuck up about. All over facebook and twitter it's being posted and tweeted.. Please people if you really care then do some thing about it don't just post "#StopKony" what the fuck is that going to do? Confuse people who don't know what the fuck you're talking about or annoy those who do and just continue to post it all over making it seem like a change is happening. If you want to make a change then start a fucking petition and get all those who won't quit posting "Kony" to sign it for fucks sake!

Games

Emotions blur into numbness
The king and queen fall
Life is nothing but a game of chess
Every player against the wall

Spin the wheel
Set the game in motion
How will you feel?
This is the game of emotion.

Games and choices.
What will you do?
Listen to the voices?
I don't know, the choice is up to you.

F-ed and Forgotten they're Friends

So humans get close to each other
Sometimes they feel like sister and brother.
And so they break
Like a vampire who's heart has a wooden stake.
Unlike a glittery Twilight one
That just sparkles in the sun.
This one burns and dies.

Distance

We went from a 5 minute walking distance to total alienation.
I felt that you were someone I could rely on.
But now you just seem to be gone.

Friendships do come to an end don't they?

Am I out of your monkey sphere?
Past the 150 person limit?
Seems I am since it feels like we have nothing in common.

Nothing.

I invite you to places and you can't bring yourself to go.
Too lazy right?
Won't wake up before noon.
I don't blame you for that.

I mean either you tweet and reblog
or don't sleep at all.

Then again you never invite me any where.
Just other friends

Bitch.

That wasn't fair,
But I did saw you twice there.
Course you only saw me once.
Not like it seemed that you cared.

Only cared about that other gay dude, right?
I thought you said he was a high kill.
And I guess I'm a drag.
You must prefer the high kill to the drag.

This drag who talks about reality.
Just brings you down doesn't he?

What do you want?
Fun and stupidity?
Blind and confused you're gonna be.

I guess I'll leave you behind
and add others to my monkey sphere.
Friends who will keep me on their mind.
but I'll always live with that fear.

Fear that I'll be forgotten,
and marginalized.
Put on the edge.
Forgotten by friends.
Ignored.