Clay's Way was an amazing book and after reading The Vast Fields of Ordinary, I can't stop thinking about how I feel like I'm going to always feel lonely and all this other bullshit. I fucking hate how sad all this shit affects me. It's like books and the Internet are my one and only life. I just want a life and to be happy, in none of the books I have read have the character been plugged in.
I asked my sister how creepy it was that all her neighbors were never outside and how it seemed like you didn't know each other and she said that they did know each other, that everyone lived independent lives. I asked her how can you live independent lives while you're plugged in? I know see that you can't but you need to be in contact with all the people. In The Vast Fields of Ordinary it never mentioned him spending hours on the computer or his phone, the only time I remember him being on the computer was when he was with Pablo but that was just to plug himself in and away from the terror that is Pablo. I now see that I plug myself in and that's why I never see life, I am always away from life.
Why am I always away from the life that I want? Is that because the life online is better? Or the only one I know? Life...
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